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I created this journal some time before I left home, but didn't start making entries until I got to Japan. Feel free to peruse at your leisure as I chronicle my experiences in this strange and fascinating country... yoroshiku onegaishimasu!

"Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed." - Storm Jameson
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Apr. 14th, 2008 @ 09:42 am Counting Down
Current Mood: busybusy
Well, I'm going home and I think it's time. By the time I leave Japan, I will have been here for 4 years. It's been a great experience, and I know I will miss it when I leave, but I feel that I am becoming too weary of a number of things: dealing with homesickness, dealing with the office culture, dealing with things that I had the patience to deal with before but now no longer have the time nor energy for. I need a change of environment, and I want to leave Japan still loving it ;p

The past year has been an incredible year of ups and downs, and sometimes I think it's been harder than my first year in Japan. It could be because of the job transfer, settling into a new city, new job etc. But I have experienced a lot of personal turmoil as well, which thankfully I have gotten through.

The start of the new JET was stressful but things have slowed down a bit.

In other news, I was able to sneak away and go visit my relatives in the Philippines two weeks ago, which was great. My dad was also there, too, so that was an awesome plus.

Here are a few photos:

Philippines!
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Feb. 8th, 2008 @ 02:12 pm いい こと
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
After a meeting at a high school, my supervisor and I stopped in at Mini Stop conbini. Being the Hello Kitty freak that I am, I cooed over the "free" heart-shaped plates that they were giving away. You need to collect 30 points in stickers to get the plate, which means you have to buy items in the store that have the Hello Kitty point stickers on them. Japan is great about these giveaway campaigns, which is one of the things I will miss when I leave.
After a few minutes of "oohing" and "aahing" over the sample plates on display, the bemused cashiers rung up our purchases, and handed me 10 points’ worth of stickers! I was happy and surprised and uttered several exclamations of "Ureshii!" It felt like Christmas. Even when we were pulling out of the parking lot, one of the cashiers rushed over and pressed several more point stickers into my hand :) She told me to “Ganbatte” on collecting the rest of the points.
They probably thought I was some sort of Kitty-chan otaku, but that was my "good thing" from yesterday.
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Jan. 23rd, 2008 @ 02:16 pm Learning how to deal
Current Mood: tiredtired
Personal turmoil and stress is always draining, physically and mentally. I look forward to the weekends, more so than usual. My apartment is my haven, where I can sleep in my warm bed, lying in between soft blankets, which are topped off nicely with a heavy duvet. I sleep in until mid-afternoon, and try not to feel guilty for wasting the day in bed.

Then I watch TV - a lot of TV - on my laptop and on DVD. I watch TV shows from home. I find most Japanese television shows irritating, partly because they tend to be quite ridiculous/superficial/just plain stupid (e.g. One random TV show last night featured high school boys from the Tokyo/Kansai area, supposedly selected for their delicate, feminine features. These boys were dressed up in drag to resemble Japanese celebrities or other TV personalities, while the audience, mostly composed of high school girls, cooed over how "kawaii" they were). That being said, I still watched at least 10 minutes of it before I turned it off.

There are, of course, exceptions; there are some TV shows which I do like, such as "Eigo de Shabera Nighto/英語でしゃべらナイト", an English/Japanese chat show. It's one of the few shows that:
a) don't feature foreigners playing up to the stereotype of the stupid / loud / uncouth gaijin
b) doesn't try to teach viewers token English phrases
c) actually features proper celebrities, both Japanese and foreign, not just annoying TV personalities that are usually on 24/7 in the aforementioned empty-calorie shows.

But I'm rambling. I'm currently addicted to CSI: Miami.

So, the point of this entry. My coping mechanisms of late in regards to what I'm going through now:
- watch TV
- eat chocolate
- eat rich foods
- drink lots of red wine
- sleep a lot
- go into denial, snap out of it, and just let the sadness wash over you.

Because there's no escaping it.
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Jan. 15th, 2008 @ 08:51 pm And so it goes
No matter what happens in my life, good or bad, I like to think that it happens for a reason. That may sound flaky or new-agey, but it actually helps me get my head around things. Obviously, when something good happens, you tend not to rationalize things too much - who rationalizes happiness when you're busy being happy?

But when bad things happen, well, that's when I really start to believe that they've happened for a reason. I just don't know what that reason is yet.
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Jan. 8th, 2008 @ 09:35 pm Tra la la
Current Mood: contentcontent
Things that can make you feel good:

-a day of snowboarding, and the muscle aches that follow
-eating pumpkin soup and dipping bread in it
-wearing house socks to keep your feet warm and toasty in a cold apartment
-sipping on a glass of wine as you watch TV
-talking to friends on the phone
-giggling with office mates when you're supposed to be working
-remembering that your parents are thinking of you

I had a chill day at the office. Just finished up some things that had been reserved for down-time and worked on some lesson plans for upcoming school visits. With the students still on winter vacation, there is not much else to do but have idle chats with co-workers, catch up on some email, and think about my plans post-JET.

Happy Birthday, J! xo
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Jan. 7th, 2008 @ 11:58 pm Ake Ome
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Well, another year has passed. I suppose I should take stock of what happened in the past year but I have a paper journal for that.

And I suppose I should make a few resolutions that would improve/enlighten myself, but I know myself too well - I would break them before the end of the month :)

So instead what I will do is just write whatever pops into my head whenever I log into this journal... I don't want this journal to die. I started it when I first came to Japan. It would be a shame to stop writing in it now. Okay, I guess that's kind of a resolution ;)

I still have those "I-can't-believe-I'm-living-in-Japan" moments, which I'm very grateful for, because it means that I still find enjoyment in being here. But I have been away from home for almost 3 1/2 years now, and I feel like my life back home has been put on hold, though, obviously everyone I know there is carrying on with their lives, getting married, having babies, buying houses, building careers - in other words, growing up.

I wonder if I'll ever grow up...
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Dec. 27th, 2007 @ 04:53 pm Like cool T-shirts???
お久しぶりです and all the jazz... I really need to make a decision about this neglected part of my world in cyberspace. It's not good to not update!

Just a quick one for now... check out the following link. Encouraged by their success with BAND OF THE DAY ,
my brother and his friends are designing cool T-shirts.

Check it out:

HAMBURGER DISCO

FREE shipping WORLDWIDE until February 2008!!!
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Oct. 3rd, 2007 @ 01:27 pm A natsukashii-na memento
Ohisashiburi. I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore, but I may as well maintain it if I've had it for this long. Things have changed since my last post. New job, new city, new apartment, new people. Everything is new, new, new. It is overwhelming being out of my Hirosaki comfort zone.

Anyway, I came across this when I was trying to clear out my email inbox. It was attached to an email from my sister, and I had sent friends and family the following email three years ago. Another point for the pro side to maintain my packrat mentality - rediscovered memories... who wouldn't want that? ;p

And so it goes:

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I am nearing my 3 month mark in this weird and wonderful country. i have learned the following about myself, in no particular order:

1. i can say just as many stupid things in japan as i can in canada. i have had many "dim" moments where i blurt out the first thing that comes to my mind. i can only wonder what the other JETS think of me! i would call them blonde moments, but thats not very politically correct, plus, i have met a lot of smart women up here, who also happen to be blonde.

2. i CAN eat weird things and not feel sick. no, i haven't tried natto yet (yes, im planning to), which is supposed to be gross and foul-smelling fermented soybeans, but i have experienced the following:
-umeboshi (i think, a very sour plum/apricot thing, interesting, but i wouldn't eat it everyday- they like pickling everything here),
-this weird square dried cuttlefish candy thing, with cheese in the middle (WHY would you mix cheese and any sort of fish together? that's like mixing cheese and chocolate, which i am also very much against),
-this cookie, i don't know what it's called, but it looks like a chocolate cookie, kinda like an oreo without the cream, which is made of squid INK. yeah, it tasted weird, but i ate like 5 of them
-beef stomach, at a korean-style bbq place. people here don't seem to realize that the idea of yakiniku originally came from korea, and they think that ramen was made in japan as well. go figure.

that's all i can remember for now, food-wise.

3. oh yeah, and there is no limit to how much dark chocolate i can eat! the dark chocolate here is awesome! and so cheap! who would've thought that japanese chocolate would rival that of the european chocolate we're used to in north america?

4. i have a terrible sense of rhythm and coordination. i joined a hip-hop class, yes, hip-hop is taken very seriously here. i have seen at least 3 hip-hop clothing stores in hirosaki. and i suck! i can't seem to get the choreographed moves down, if it requires moving my arms AND my legs at the same time! i don't get it though, i usually have no problem dancing in clubs in vancouver... maybe it's the alcohol.

5. there are times when i still feel socially awkward, but my first instinct now is not to retreat, but just get over it. i can't believe it took moving to a whole other country to do that, but well, that's life, i guess. still there are times when i still feel shy, but beer really helps me relax :)

6. oh yeah, i'm drinking more beer now than ever before! i hated drinking beer back home, but since people drink it like water here, i've adapted. plus i didn't want to be the only one in the group ordering some girly drink. no beer gut, yet! hopefully that won't happen.

7. i've become adept at frying all kinds of food at home... tofu, vegetables, meat, even cheese (but the cheese here is weird, not at all like canadian cheese)... i can't be bothered to prepare food any other way, because i'm too lazy, although i did boil pasta to make spaghetti once, because you just can't fry pasta.

8. i like living on my own! it's nice having your own space! but i've discovered that it sucks cooking for one person, and shopping for one person. i have had to throw out a lot of food that's gone bad. i cannot hoard my food here like i can back home.

9. i kind of like teaching! officially, i'm an assistant language teacher at a high school, but sometimes i kind of get the feeling that the other teachers don't see the importance of my being here... i mean, i help as much as i can, but since i'm based at only one school, i end up with a lot of free time, because i'm not needed in all the classes. i'm working hard to make them see that i'm not someone they have to babysit and that i do take my job seriously, despite what past JETS may have done. but i like working with the kids, they're all first-years, which makes them about 16, and they're all generally sweet! i think they kind of see me as a peer, which is cool, so a lot of them call me by just my first name, (which they pronounce DEE-NAH, which is fine) i'm kind of uncomfortable with the title of "sensei" anyway.

10. i can procrastinate in japan just as well as i can back home! i've signed up for the japanese language proficiency test in december, but i haven't really studied! i know i only need to know 100 kanji, but they still look just like symbols to me... hopefully i can motivate myself to study soon.

well, that's 10 things... which is a nice round number to end at. there are a lot of other things i've learned, but i just can't remember them right now...
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This was written three years ago... how time flies... my newbie enthusiasm jumping off the page ;p It has made me realize how much I have changed, and how perhaps, how little I haven't.
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May. 20th, 2007 @ 09:45 pm Sunday driving
Current Mood: contentcontent
When I found out I was moving to Hirosaki three years ago, I searched the internet for as much information as I could find. With the exception of a few personal blogs, information was scarce. There was a description in one blog that described Hirosaki as a town that was so spread out, that you could drive for miles and miles out and still be within the city limits.

And it's true. Taking advantage of the first sunny day that we've had in weeks (and the fact that we were broke waiting for payday tomorrow), we headed off on a kuruma adventure and put in another 100 km on the car. Memorable and random things were seen, most of which were given a quick glance as we sped by. Here are a few of things we saw today.
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Apr. 21st, 2007 @ 06:36 pm Sittin' and waitin'...
Current Mood: excitedexcited
...for my trip to Thailand, round 2. In 3 days! Can't wait!
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